Surf's Up

umm so lets see...i'm totally bored and figured wow lets check live journal, since i haven't written in this thing almost 2 years...crazy,.. but its definatly a good place to write and get your feelings out. 

so yeah i'm not with billy...definatly should not have wrote those things i did, because he didn't turn out liek a great guy after all but who cares...i wanna talk about this boy that i've been with for almost a year...and he's great :) his name is ben and he's from colorado and i've never met anyone whose n themselves better than him...you couldn't change him if u tried. he's absolutely amazing. I'm 19 now and not 17...i live on my own with a wicked cool girl who name is sarah. im now a bartender at tgi fridays. and ummm my life's great :) its just weird that it changes in a matter of 2 years...1 year...2 weeks...1 day... its crazy


Ben's in florida...and i'm sad...but i'm happy for him  because he gets to see his mom who gets to see  like twice a year! I'm very selfish when it comes ot him..ha because i see him everyday so not seeing him for a week is like torture to me...so i'm upset and a little jealous that he's down there. lol but its okay i think i'll survive. alright well just wanted to update 2 years later ya know. maybe i'll update in like 5 years from now. ha 


always and forever 

me

It's 5:20, and I'm sitting at my house doing absolutly nothing with no one around. It's actually quite nice. I'm exhausted for some reason...maybe because I have been out every night of the week since school got out and on top of that, working. Everyone's working tonight, except for me, I worked today though. :-). I went to Target today and got 2 air fresheners for my car and floor mats for it too. My parents got my bed!!! yey...although its probably soaken wet because it's pouring rain right now. Billy's doing his 2 table validation tonight, I hope he does well, I know he's gonna do well, he's good like that. I leave for Florida in 1 week, I'm not really excited about it yet, I don't know why, maybe because I'd rather be with my friends.

My friend Tom is having a party monday night...I don't think I'm gonna go, I'd rather see all my friends sober then completely cocked out of their mind. I'm kinda growing out of the whole drinking and smoking thing I think. Maybe once in a while I'll drink with my friends but I'm done with the parties and stuff. Probably when I turn 18 or 21 is when I'll be like "lets party!!" or something but being 17 wicked sucks. It's a pointless age. It really is.

Everything in my life is going very well. My friends are great, my boyfriends good, and the family and I are getting along fairly well. I can't complain much, but I'm a girl so I always find a way to complain about something.

I haven't seen Jess in like 2 months. Atleast it feels like 2 months. We both have completely different schedules and totally different lifestyles I don't know anymore. It's hard. Sometimes it feels like a one way friendship, like I'm always going there and I'm always making the effort to call her or see her. It's frustrating. I'm over it. Life's better out here anyway, it's more my life, my place. A place where I belong. I love it. :-)

I'm gonna stop with the bullcrap, and go out to dinner with my family.

All My Love

Janelle

*Jenn*

Okay so the beginning of junior year, english class, I didn't really know anyone but you were there for me when I needed you. You made me feel comfortable. You and Deva both toook me and granted me with this awesome friendship we still have. I just started knowing you when the bad things happened with Joe and you were sad and really depressed, and I was there for you every moment of the way. Then we really started hanging out and we became the best of friends when you met chris, and I've never seen you more happy than now. Jenn our friendship means the world to me and I would do anything anything then to ever let it go. We hit bumpy roads but we always get over it. Towards the end of junior year we started getting in trouble because we talked to much, or we just were never paying attention. Thanks by the way. Just kidding!!! You were always there for me no matter what and I appreciate everybit of it. I've never laughed so hard with you, or have been called so many names by you, or just been stupid before and those are the best times. The camp-outs, slushies, drives, shopping (thanks for making me spend all my money), dramas, movies, pictures, and just hanging out. Thank you!!!

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

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best physical quaility:	eyes
best personality trait:	you can solve any social problem
will you marry your bf/gf that you have now?	it depends
when will you get married?	December 15, 2010
your kiss is:	short and sweet
People date you because:	you're hot
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TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Janelle
Birthday: January 16
Birthplace: Florida
Current Location: RI
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Dirty Blonde
Height: 5'
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right
Your Heritage: French Canadian
The Shoes You Wore Today: um..what are shoes?
Your Weakness: being too nice
Your Fears: basement
Your Perfect Pizza: Cheese
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Passing High School
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: haha
Thoughts First Waking Up: what time is it?
Your Best Physical Feature: none
Your Bedtime: 8pm
Your Most Missed Memory: Slip and Slide with Jeffrey
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King: Wendys
Single or Group Dates: don't matter none
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: neither
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: coffee
Do you Smoke: no
Do you Swear: all the f-ing time
Do you Sing: i try
Do you Shower Daily: most of the time
Have you Been in Love: yessums
Do you want to go to College: yepp
Do you want to get Married: maybe
Do you belive in yourself: sometimes
Do you get Motion Sickness: uh not usually....
Do you think you are Attractive: not my place to say
Are you a Health Freak: not at all
Do you get along with your Parents: most of the time
Do you like Thunderstorms: yea sure
Do you play an Instrument: haha, i have played an instrument, didn't work out
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: maybe
In the past month have you Smoked: nope
In the past month have you been on Drugs: nope
In the past month have you gone on a Date: yea
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: like everyday
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no i don't think so
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: grosssss
In the past month have you been on Stage: nope
In the past month have you been Dumped: i don't think so
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: lol...
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: .....
Ever been Drunk: lol oh yeaaaa
Ever been called a Tease: probably
Ever been Beaten up: plenty of times
Ever Shoplifted:....lol DEVA's FAULT
How do you want to Die: I don't want to die
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: owning a buisness with my brother
What country would you most like to Visit: Australia

In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: brown
Favourite Hair Color: blonde
Short or Long Hair: short...i like buzzed hair
Height: taller than me
Weight: muscular
Best Clothing Style: surfer style
Number of Drugs I have taken: just the big mary-j
Number of CDs I own: too many to count
Number of Piercings: 8
Number of Tattoos: zero
Number of things in my Past I Regret: more than i can count

So it's finally summer '05, what we've all been waiting for since the first day of school in '04. It's one of the best summer's I have been having yet! I have changed so much since I've moved from Barrington and I feel so much happier. I have met some of the greatest people in my life and they mean so much to me! 1. Billy (the greatest guy in the world, I love you) 2. Jenn (the bestest friend and the one who takes care of me) 3. Deva (the funniest person I will ever know) 4. the rest of the girls; Christine and Jamie. You girls are the funniest people and who I have shared the most memories with. (camping, slushies, car rides, stories, movies, swimming, beach). I love you guys. Living here has made me realize who I am and what life is all about. There are always blocks in the road, but there are always to ways to get around them, there are often dead ends but you can just turn around. Billy and Jenn have shown me so much and have been there for me when I was down, or in the best mood ever. This sounds like a load of crud but it's not. I love who I am now, and I love who I have met. I used to be this stuck up girl, who could care less about what I did. I would just give myself up to anyone and I realize I have to respect myself way more than I used too. I love who I have become and I wouldn't do anything to change that.

*Billy* - The day we started dating was like love at first sight. I can't explain to you more than now how I feel about you. You have kept me out of trouble and into the clearing. You have treated me with a great deal of respect and you have givin me the space I need. You always have my back, and you will always have my heart. I have never been more in love with anyone than I am with you. All the memories we share and still have 1000000 * infinity to experience. You mean more to me than anything. I never felt more secure, and comfortable around anyone except for you. I will always be there for you at anytime and for anything. I would do anything for you, anything(don't take advantage of that). I love you. 3/12